Showing posts with label PhD. Show all posts
Showing posts with label PhD. Show all posts

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Some more good news

I found out on Friday that I have been officially awarded my PhD, and will graduate later in the year!

It has been a really long road, and I'm so happy and relieved.

Thank you for all your encouragement over the years. You're the best readers ever. xx

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

The Finish Line


I handed my thesis in yesterday!! Thank you for all your support throughout - it has been a slog.

I'm pretty adrenaline-y still and I bet it'll take a while to calm down, but for now, it feels pretty good.

If you'll excuse me, I have an appointment with some podcasts, bad DVDs, some new iphone apps and a late afternoon snooze!

I wish you all a wonderfully happy Easter and see you soon.

xxx

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Gulp.

Image from the most excellent THXTHXTHX blog. You should really check it out.

I might be a bit absent from blogland for a little while. I've been reticent to talk about it here for fear of jinxing it, but I really am going into the scary tunnel of the end of the PhD.

I've pre-posted a few bits and pieces, and will hopefully be PhD-less when I come back. Which will be incredibly, amazingly, delightfully, refreshingly good.

Thanks always for your lovely comments. It's truly a delight having a blog, and I appreciate it more than you could know.

See you soon!

Sunday, February 8, 2009

The Corrections (a.k.a. A Mini Rant)

This picture was taken by the Pal at the Ghibli Museum in Tokyo, Japan. It doesn't have much to do with the post, but it makes me happy, so it stays.

Today is my first day of reading examiners' comments and beginning the process of corrections on my thesis. On one level, the comments are really uplifting - they all seem to think this is a "significant contribution to the field" which is nice, but sometimes they are just plain mean. It's easy to sit back, take pot shots from the cheap seats, as the Pal says, and then not offer any substantively helpful feedback. That being said, I am very grateful to one anonymous marker who went out of his/her way to suggest careful and thoughtful ways to address a particular structural and theoretical issue.

I think it's just very hard to sit and read 12 pages of pretty full-on critique without feeling a bit winded.

Memo to self: it's really nice to be nice. And helpful, too. If I am ever in the position of marking anything, I hope to be able to do it with grace and humility and offer intelligent advice.

**Edited to say thank you for all your delightful comments - I appreciate them so much. xx

Monday, October 27, 2008

An Afternoon Surprise

This afternoon a brand new copy of the UK journal 'Critical Engagements' arrived. The exciting thing about it is that I'm in it! I've published an article about the body and 9/11 within fiction. Eeee! And perhaps the best bit? It was the first piece of mail (not from my friends!) that addressed me as 'Dr'. A little premature, maybe, but quite thrilling nonetheless.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

The Finish Line


I have measured out my life in coffee spoons, or so writes T. S. Eliot in The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock.

For me, I measured out the last 1500 or so days of my life in spell checks, word counts, articles, endnote references, and eye strain. My heart has felt the full gamut of emotions from utter bliss (I'm getting paid to think and read and write!) to crippling anxiety and looming fears (I can't do this! Why is it only getting harder as I go along?). And my poor old body has suffered back pain, a lack of exercise/fresh air, teeth-grinding, tears, anxiety, and general bumps and bruises - I sure did fracture my nasal bone, too - along the way.

But I've made it. Today I hand in four copies of my super big PhD thesis! For now it feels pretty surreal and I have a pretty agonising wait to see if I pass, but I am relieved, if not still feeling a small amount of residual stress.

Thank you to all in blogland (and in reality) who helped me on my way. You're the best! Will tell of the adventures when I return!

Monday, September 22, 2008

Thesis Update...again


Ooh, it's that time again! For the thrilling and readership-gathering post on my PhD!

I finally submitted my final draft to my supervisors again today (my third final draft...hmmm). I feel a bit like I have been hit in the teeth with a large truck.

Overcome with not really sleeping the last little while, I had an afternoon snooze, and dreamed Joyce Carol Oates gave me an F on an exam. My dreams aren't even metaphors anymore!

So, just wanted to let you know where I'm up to. Also trying to pack up my apartment to move, which is as about as exciting as it sounds :)

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Thesis Update


Sorry for not being a very good email/general correspondent for now. I'm deep in hermit mode once more and working on some more thesis revisions due by Thursday/Friday this week.

No final date yet, (exactly how to torture me best...) but my co-supervisor sent me an email yesterday saying, 'courage, mon ami"! so I have taken that advice to heart.

A picture of Daria felt appropriate here. She is my favourite nerd.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Ooops!

In a moment of weakness, I think I accidentally posted a post saying I had finished my PhD. I haven't. I just found a cool image to use, thought I'd make a post for it, and then instead of pressing 'save', I pressed 'publish'.

Le sigh
.

Get back to work, Kate!

Monday, September 8, 2008

Speaks for Itself

Just got a call from my supervisor. She's annotated my draft, and thinks when I make THOSE changes, I will be ready to submit. I have no idea how long that will take, but will have a better idea by the time I have a look this afternoon.

EDITED TO SAY: I have got the draft - corrections look numerous but she assures me I should submit within the next few weeks, which is a HUGE relief. Thanks for all the e-hugs!

If only I weren't such a control freak, this process wouldn't be nearly as tricky! Thanks for all your good wishes - I really appreciate it.

Friday, September 5, 2008

Relaxing Crazy


It's been a crazy week. I'm waiting to hear back from my supervisor as to whether my complete draft is ready for submission, which has been quite nerve-wracking in itself. But I've now been waiting for almost two weeks, and I've finally done all the last-minute things I can think of. If I check my bibliography one more time, I will finally and completely unspool.

It's hard, as I don't have an end-date in sight (could be next week, could be next month), so it's really hard to plan anything or feel normal! Haven't really been seeing people much of late - my head's a bit exhausted, and it's strange to be in the limbo of having no work to do, but not being able to relax properly...

So in the meantime, and in a very Kate-way, I have:

1. Read four books in three days, including the very excellent Clockers by Richard Price. (Price also wrote some of The Wire which I'm also two seasons into and completely love...)


2. Watched two seasons of Jeeves and Wooster. Too, too much hilarity - for a little taste, have a look here.

3. Made oh-so-many new badges. It's getting to be a habit, now! They'll be up in the shop soon.

4. Started my setzkasten transformation. Oh la la. Pics soon!

5. Waiting for the next Buffy comic to arrive.

6. Started a brand new secret craft project. More details to follow...

Hmmm. This is what other people do when they relax, right?!

Monday, August 4, 2008

Self-seclusion, or Getting a PhD Done...



This is a bit how I feel at the moment, except I don't have a cute egg-chair, nor am I reading fun books about David Bowie. I am in lock-down thesis mode from here on in - four weeks to go! - and while it's exciting, it's also quite emotionally draining and a bit exhausting. So many life changes happening all at the same time.

But, as if on cue, dearest friends have been so helpful. Whether it's a little email to check if my head's above water, dropping food packages over (low GI and gluten-free, no less!), editing and proofreading for me, or sending postcards with words of encouragement, I have been really blessed to have so many thoughtful and lovely things coming my way. So thank you friends for all your love and support - you can't possibly know how much it all means.

Of course having this blog has been a really important outlet, too, and thank you also to my bloggy friends who egg me on.

The thought of actually finishing this thesis makes me all jumpy in the tummy. Imagine not thinking about it! And having some time off!

Eeeee!

I may be a little light on posting over the next little while, but I'll do my best!

Monday, July 7, 2008

So You Want to Do a PhD?: Part II

Image via the nonist

Continuing the PhD series, I thought I'd look today at the idea of how to pick an issue to write on, and how to keep to it. This is, of course, only what has been helpful to me. It shouldn't be read as a definitive primer - I'd love to hear about your different experiences.

The best advice I can offer in terms of picking a topic, is that you should be deeply excited about it. You should want to know the answers to the questions you have, it should make you want to move towards a computer and you should want to spend hours thinking about it.

In my own experience, I did have a fairly clear idea of the topic I wanted to focus on, but no idea on what areas within it, nor even which books I'd pick to study. That was a level of vagueness that I could cope with, because I knew with lots of research, I'd find out the books which would help me, (some hadn't been published when I started!) and subsequently puzzle out the tropes of interest.

While that doesn't mean it was an easy road, I have seen some others falter along the way when they have no idea of their scope, and therefore spend a lot of time doing reading which ultimately doesn't help. Often then, there's a subsequent difficulty in finding a framework for an initial idea when that idea keeps changing.

So if you can, focus on one area, and then find a framework for it, you'll be much better off. (Award for most obvious, much?!) Even if you canvas all the options, pick the one you get most joy out of thinking about. My supervisor always says: pick what makes your heart beat faster. She's right!

There's also a big question in PhD-land concerning when to stop reading and start writing. I guess you could conceivably read for the three or four years without writing a thing, both because there's a lot out there, and because it can be intimidating to start writing after reading all the experts.

I was told to start writing really early, but found that to be impossible when I hadn't decided on a defined topic. So for me, I started to write small sections after about six months of reading, just to get my eye in. It was horribly hard at first, but it was as if I broke through a barrier earlier on, and even though I hated what I was writing, I needed to write something.

So write when you feel you have a few ideas - don't pressure yourself, but see it as a positive first step towards the end project.

Next time: organisation and time management. Wahoo!


This post is the second in a series. For the first, have a look at: So You Want to Do a PhD?: Part I

Monday, June 30, 2008

So You Want to Do a PhD?: Part I

Cutest image in the world from Golly Molly

I'm reluctant to make this blog all about doing PhDs, because that's not what it's supposed to be about, and I already alienate enough people socially with the "P-word" - I don't need to do it more online!

But I had a lot of feedback about my last post on doing a PhD, and thought I'd share a few thoughts on what prompted me to make the decision in the first place, and some of the reactions I received.

Deciding to do a PhD seemed quite an unremarkable thing to me at the time. I love studying English, I had a good idea of what I wanted to study, and the opportunity to work with a great supervisor. But for what I thought was an uncontroversial decision, I received a surprising amount of backlash from some people. (Not, of course, from my close friends.) A few of the common reactions were, "Why would you want to spend another four years at uni?", "You're too young/old to do a PhD", (I'm only 25 now!) and "Why don't you get a proper job first?" I was blown away! I wondered why so many people felt qualified to judge my decision so openly, but it seems like you just need to get used to varied reactions. Even now, a few months away from completion, I try not to say 'PhD' when I meet new people - it just elicits a lot of hostility.

So none of that should be taken as a reason not to pursue a doctorate - more just like a friendly heads-up that people can get weird about it...

But these are some things that might help you feel good about your decisions. You might want to do a PhD because:

-you have a really great idea and feel passionate about researching and writing it.

-you see a PhD as a positive next step in your career and are excited about the thought of publishing.

-you want to get into academia.

-you want a period in your life where you can think, read and write with as much freedom as possible.

-you are organised and goal-oriented. Self-motivation really helps here - you're on your own a lot.

Since beginning my candidature, I have decided (at this stage) not to go into academia. Do I regret my thesis? Not at all. It has taught me so many invaluable things which I couldn't have imagined before - and not just about my topic area. It has been an incredible experience to have to think so hard. Of course it's difficult at times, but getting through those patches has made the results even sweeter.

OK, that's enough for one post. I'd love to keep hearing your feedback - anything I should cover next?

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Getting Things Done

Image via ffffound

Recently, a lot of people have been asking me whether I think I am on track to finish my PhD by the end of August. And to be quite honest, it’s hard to say. I’ve never finished a PhD before, so I don’t really know what I’m in for. For me, it was quite helpful for other people to know about my deadline, so that I had some impetus to keep working!

Here are some other things that have helped me out.

1. I am a strong believer in Parkinson’s Law, which states that tasks usually expand or contract to the amount of time you have to do them in. So if you allowed yourself a year to write an essay, you’d probably take a year. But if you allowed yourself two weeks to do the same essay, you might well get it done. Maybe. So I give myself pretty ambitious deadlines all the time and see what I get done in that time. However, sometimes Hofstadter's Law kicks in and then I have to start again.

2. Friends often make the comment that ‘you’re so organised’ as if organisation is contagious or should be avoided. I do love to make lists and find that they actually calm me down. If I can break everything down into small tasks, it all seems much more manageable. Putting "1. Write PhD" is entirely unhelpful as it doesn't reference what to start with. Some people are big fans of GTD or David Allen's Getting Things Done book. I think it's a really helpful guide, but that you can get a bit caught up in organising the processes and not spend enough time actually getting through your tasks. You only have to look at the amount of GTD-related site and life hacks where people meticulously document their filing systems or notebooks. Helpful, but get back to work!

3. Work out when you want the project finished by (for me, this was the end of August) and then write a week by week timetable working backwards. So even if I am working on Chapter One instead of Chapter Two this week, I at least know I have designated a week for each chapter.

4. It's only a thesis. I think "PhD" puts a lot of people off, but realistically I'm only writing an essay - it's just a lot longer than I've written before. Keeping things in perspective can be really hard, but at the end of the day I think it's really important. That being said, I told a friend of mine who has since completed her PhD that when I travelled in Europe last, I felt really humbled, and thought "If you could build a cathedral 400 years ago, I can surely write a thesis." She didn't miss a beat, and shot back with, "I would have thought, "Yeah, you built a cathedral...but can you write a PhD?!!"

5. Avoid books, websites and blogs on how to finish a PhD or other project. I think they are scaremongering procrastinators who would be probably better off getting to work than writing ab0ut how to get to work. Egads I'm opinionated this morning!

Ahem, so that's the extent of my wisdom - off to work now...